no judgement

Life is beating me up, and I am literally about to lose my shit...
I told Christian's travel coach that tonight. It is how I feel.
I wasn't going to tell you. I was told I shouldn't complain to you. But I am...
Bad wife status...

So I forget to take C's bat bag out of my car. I get to the game 10 min late. Just enough time to see my clean up hitter smack a double into left-center. But they tag a kid out on 3rd and there was 2 outs. Anyway so I run over to the dugout to give him his bat bag. His glove isn't there...
We didn't play with the Indians or the Knights on Sunday. We played with the Cubs coaches. He literally was using whoever was on the bench...he used their glove. Luckily we played Coach Randy's team tonight (they killed us) because Coach Andrew is out of town. So I talk to him after the game and he calls Coach Jason (Cub's coach) and Coach Jason does not have C's glove. He says hopefully someone turned it in to lost and found but a nice glove is doubtful. Great...just fucking great. So I ordered C a new glove tonight...he is paying us back for half of it. But I also spent a lot of money on other stuff. So I need you to not pass any judgement because I am having a very bad week so far.

So anyway, Lily lost her freaking acro shoes last week. I didn't do anything this past weekend because I was hoping she would find them when she went back to dance Tuesday...ummmm no of course not. So I had to get her new freaking acro shoes. I am seriously at the end of my rope over here.

We have an early game on saturday and afterwards I am literally not doing anything. I had already planned on grilling that evening. So I am going to the pool with Vanessa and the girls. I just need a break from reality.
I don't have an issue leaving work stuff at work but I do have an issue of leaving home stuff at home. Because I still have to deal with home stuff at work...I am never doing just one job. I am always doing all the jobs.

Thankfully I had asked Samantha to bring a glove for Christian to use (even though he refused to use it) or I may have lost my head right then...I could feel myself starting to break down. So then to make a stressful situation even more intense. Their dad is on vacation for the next 2 weeks, for his birthday. So I asked him to follow me to publix and I would give him cash for gas, food, and a new glove if he would get the kids tomorrow or thursday and take them shopping. His answer was no...so then I was really about lose my cool. Trying to figure out how I was going to get him to Dicks to get a new glove. So I just ordered one off of Amazon...crisis averted.

So in the end I figured it out but it was a rough evening. I talked to Coach Andrews mom tonight, she is a really nice lady. Anyway she said she just made a point to buying several gloves at a time that way when this happened she could just pull another one out and they could use it. This is all new for me...I never lost my glove. I had one glove, I outgrew it and got a new one. The "new" one is the one Lily used...I NEVER lost my glove. I am making him give me money for half of his new glove as punishment for not keeping up with his equipment.

Anyway...that was my night. On a lighter side Christian is hitting fantastic off the pitching machine now. He will probably be clean up hitter from now on. He hit a double and they tagged a runner out at 3rd. Then he hit a single into right field and hit in 3 RBIs. I say he did his job on that last hit. My man!!! hittin bombs all over the field!
I hope you have a great day. I love you! Good night